The best time of the year

Snow flakes, white trees, snowman smiles

Gift exchanges, ginger house

All the christmas songs play loud

Time to laugh and sing with crowds

There's no stragers, let's be king

Every person gives some love

That's why christmas always will

Be the bestest time of year

 

Life is crazy.

Who would have thought that I would end up having pink hair?
Who would have thought me and my best friend would go to class together through the entire schooling experience?
Who would have thought my once so loved idols wouldn't be my main interest in a matter of few days?
Who would have thought my first F wouldn't mean a thing in high school?
Who would have thought I would end up wanting to be an ad designer?
Who would have thought the need to live in LA once so consuming would fade away within years?
Who would have thought my goals would change so drastically?

Everything's changed so much. People came into my life and left it. There were things happening both so sad and happy. There were dreams come true and the biggest disappointments. And I still don't know what's waiting on me around the corner.

This post is inspired by one of my best friends which I've known for 9 years. We became friends in junior high and now are still going to class together in high school. Over the years we became almost inseparable and today while hanging out in my room we decided to look through my old notebooks in which my primary school classmates wrote little notes for me. Her's said "I hope once we go our seperate ways you won't forget about me" We weren't even best frinds at the time, we thought we would go to different schools. It was in primary school. We had different goals, problems, life values and ideas of our future. And now we barely remember the day this note was written. We are in a completly different place in life, best friends, high school classmates chillin in my room reading something once so relevant... in primary school. Life is a mistery, you never know how it's going to be. So just fasten your seat belt and go with it. It's worth to see what will happen next.

Another poem.

AUTUMN.

The wind sweeping me off my feet

The scent so soft and me so petite

Another year, another day

The season changing everywhere

The leaves once so green, now go into red

My thoughts once so free, and now tangled instead

The weather is changing and so am I

That's why the seasons both go and come

~Alexa

I wrote a poem?

SCHOOL.

Step by step

Heavier chest

Fear in eyes

Grey the skies

Open doors

Teacher shows

Lesson time

Not so fun

Harsh words

Saddest thoughts

Meet dead line

Never cry

Barely sleep

Faster eat

Get grade A

All again.

~Alexa

Rainy days, smiley face

I went a little crazy with the buttons etc. haha

As you can probably tell fall is pretty official now. Leaves have gotten in touch with the ground and the air is filled with rain scent. Surprisingly I've been really missing the season, so it's great for it to finally appear. I can't wait to throw a halloween party, watch movies cuddled up in blankets and sing along to christmas songs (still pretty early to do so but fall is definitely more appropriate than summer). This time of year always reminds me of comfort and coziness, and is a very joyful period of the year overall, so I'm thrilled to see it at it's best from outside my window (can't leave the blankets alone duh). Maybe tomorrow I'll convince someone to go for a walk and hot coffee with me, because that's really the best you could do with the yellow and brown tree crowns.

High school

Junior high is no longer, I'm officially a freshman in high school and so far it's been a great experience. I absolutely love my class and the vibe of the school I chose. It's how I imagined it to be, perfectly balanced. I have a livable amount of work and somewhat of a free time. Livin the dream hahaha Hopefully things stay as great as they are :) Also can we please take a second to appreciate the double rainbow I captured on the picture above? AWESOME. Soon after I took the picture the entire sky turned pink and looked like cotton candy. Let's just say my snapachat story was extremely long! But hey a 100 seconds never hurt anybody every once in a while. Especially since the timer got removed :P

Till the next time, yo girl Lexa!

Healthy diet - what's such a thing?

Lately everyone seems to be taking part in the entire "healthy lifestyle" craze. New gyms and eco markets constantly appear on the streets because there's a huge need for their services. Juicing is getting more popular and the term "health freak" has change it's definiton from an invective to a desired nickname. I get it. We live in the century where instagram theme and visual appearnace are mistaken with man's worth. We all wana belong and be considered beautiful, examplary but that does not excuse our actions. Yep I know that the need of belonging is indeed natural, and is one of the higher needs in Maslow's pyramid. BUT the fundament of the pyramid are physical needs such as hunger. So how should we satisfy them? However we please. Both eating oatmeal and pizza for breakfast is okay. Sure you need to have a BALANCED diet and provide all the necessity substances and minerals to your body, but let's not make such a big of a deal out of a slice of pizza. Healthy diet (imo) is a diet where you're in charge and you feel comfortable with whatever you eat. Healthy diet is when you don't feel guily after treating yourself with a pizza, but you also enjoy fruit and veggies every once in a while. Healthy diet is when you have positive relationship with food and what you eat doesn't affect your mental health in any negative way. If eating all clean and raw makes you happy, feel good and energized go ahead. If you feel good living that perfect "healthy lifestyle" it's great. I'm not saying it's not and I'm not promoting obesity. Simply what I am saying is eat whatever you like, treat yourself and remember that food is supposed to be a pleasure not the source of stress (you probably have enough of that already). So just make things balance and fitted with your own invidual self. Don't force the healthy lifestyle on yourself when you know that your favourite food is pizza. It's only going to bring negative emothions to your life. So healthy diet? It's any possible food schema that fits you, your lifestyle, your needs and provides the needed components to your body. Basically eat some cake every once in a while! :)

I really hope you can tell what my main thought is because it's a very expanded topic and trying to fit all my thoughts in this post was a bit of a challenge.

Summer 2015

I feel like I always sum the the two months of hot and crazy with the same sentence "This was the best summer ever" but to be frank I don't think it was ever a lie. They just keep getting better and better. This time I went on two camps (one by the sea of my stunning homeland and the other one abroad - in Italy) and had the best adventures with awesome people. I met a lot of new amazing people and finally had the time to hang out with some of the old beloved friends. I also finally cleared my mind off and had a harsh reality check, now I remember what's truly important in life and feel very inspired to fulfill myself in the things I love to do. As you already know I went to Italy and it was amazing. The sense of freedom and the opportunity of straying in between foreign looking little streets was really nice and I was very happy with my camp choice. The free time and organised sightseeing trips were very well balanced and kept the trip interesting... But now it's all coming to an end... Or is it? I challenge myself to keep exploring and simply living also by the school year aaaaand we shall see how it goes. I will for sure update you on my journey! Until another time, xoxo

Hell-like experience

Last post was about how much free time I gained after exams. Well surprise, surprise I'm back on the "busy schedule" track. I have lots of extra projects to do in order to improve my grades and as much as I love projects throughout the year, now they've become a hell-like experience. Every one of them is expected to be perfect, well planned and creatively done but it's hard to meet these expectations if the number of projects is two times bigger than the number of days between my deadlines and today. Well wish me good luck and until the next time! xx

From the city to the forest

Lately I've been really enjoying spontaneous adventures. Not that I didn't like them before. I just never had time. Now that I've already had my exams I'm experiencing some free time (to be honest school made me forget what that was). As I mentioned before I've been very adventurous lately. Last week I went on multiple walks with my friends experiencing unknown alleys and having a great laugh. Today I went to run with my family. We planned on just doing that for a while but from mile to mile we went to a different city and then forest. We decided to walk around for a bit inbetween small houses and trees and eventually found our way back. Even tho school and tests are still a thing I've been really enjoying life lately. I love this balance between school and adventure and I hope to keep it in my future life.

Adventure.

My one life goal is to travel, go on adventures, experience new places and cultures. By that I mean not only exploring places all around the world but also going to McDonalds at 3:00 am and skateboarding on a roof of my favourite mall during summer. Adventure to me is the feeling of freedom that accompanies the smallest actions lived in extraordinary ways. I like to go off track and figure out a new way home every once in a while. I like finding places I never knew about. Every old, forgotten spot can become new and fascinating thanks to adventure. So don't deny yourself the pleasure of adventure because you don't have money to buy a plane ticket. Instead ride a bus you've never ridden before and explore the city you live in from different perspective. Adventure is everywhere, you just need to look for it in order to find it.

DIY Polaroid Wall

I adore polaroids. I like how they are compact and take pictures instantly. It's so easy to capture the moment and keep it close. These pictures fade away, just like memories and i don't think that's a flaw. That's one of the reasons why I love them. Not only that, you can also keep them in you wallet, your back pocket, pinned down to your wall. They are so easy to exist in our everyday lifes. They aren't like photo albums. Covered in dust, forgotten. They are magical. They aren't heavy, professional digital cameras that take well planned pictures. They are light, full of flaws, but the magic they guarantee you makes up for all of them.

Objectivity.

A few weeks ago I run into a thought and I couldn't get rid of it. I had to come up with a solid conclusion and honestly after hours of thinking I think I reached a level when it's no longer a thought but an entire belief. I keep repeating myself but we really do love to make up words we can't define. Objectivity is one of them. But it doesn't stop there. It's not only a word without definition, it's also a word that represents nothing. Idea of it is such abstract that it is impossible for it to be and happen. We all see and understand everything how we want to. We all represent a point of view, a unique way of percepting the world. There's impartiality, but not objectivity. I know it seems like they are synonyms but i don't think so. The more I thought about it the more they grew apart. And now I can't seem to find any common features between them. Objectivity is unreachable, It's incompatible with human nature.

Spring, apparel and afternoon walks

Gloomy days are becoming more of a memory than a regular every day experience and sun rays are hitting my face once again. I think it's finally safe to say that spring is upon us. I am convinced that this year's spring won't be as cold and snowy as last year's. I even bought apparel in different colours than black and grey and switched my combat boots into Converse. My mind and surrounding are very much ready to welcome my favourite season. Hopefully it will come soon and won't disappoint me. I am very excited to finally wake up to green scenery outside my window every day and be able to go on afternoon walks just in my hoodie.

The side effect of my procrastination

There's honestly nothing wrong with homework. When it's liveable amount. Right now I am drowning in papers and dead lines yet still I seem to have time to write a blog post... Yeah you guessed it. I in fact am the queen of procrastination.
I like studying. Studying other people, small streets in between Warsaw's coffee shops, fun facts about countries I want to go to... I like studying all the little things. I like studying by experience. But when I'm in a classroom only seeing the information... It can get quite depressing I would say. You read about these amazing places and see this beautiful pictures in you geography book, but you can't actually see them.
You read about the Eiffel tower and know its height by heart but you have never actually seen it. In my opinion the height of Eiffel tower is absolutely irrelevant to my existence or happiness. I personally would really like to know what does the atmosphere of that place feel like. I would like to see people taking pictures, making memories... not rushing from one place to another. I wish world wasn't so busy and strict. Most of us are cursed to follow the schema...
Anyway as I was saying, studying would be much more pleasant if it was based on experience... But life is how it is. All we can do is hope and work and eventually we might experience what we've learnt. How pity is that?

Irrelevant.

Brought to you by my sickness, today I will be giving y'all some life updates. Thursday morning I woke up completly safe and sound but as the day went by my fig was getting worse. My throat was starting to ache but i ignored that annoying fact and went along with my schedule. Oh what a horrible mistake that was. As I reached home (the best thing ever after a long school day) my entire body started to ache. Soon enough cough joined the spectacle. But I still had an awful amount of homework to do and no time to take medicine. Sounds completly reasonably, doesn't it? Well it obviously wasn't because now here I am cuddled up in bed with a fever after another long day of ignoring my symptoms. I am feeling very poorly and dizzy and it's such a shame because surprisingly I had plans for Saturday. No not a date or anything crazy like that, just a simple hung out with my bestie who happens to have her prom on vday. And now I am stuck arguing with myself wether I should or shouldn't meet up with her despite of how gruesome I feel. Woah did I just really write an entire paragraph this long about my irrelevant flu? Well I guess I'm just gonna keep that information in because well I put time into writing this and it also carries an amazing warning with it. Make a doctor appointment the first second you start feeling poorly or you'll end up in bed not able to move while every single inch of your body is in terrible pain. Thank you very much for your time, take care!

Perception is what truly matters.

This world is crazy. Our generation is over obsessing over the looks, the flat stomach but in the same time everyone seems to be so pro equality, self love and all of these positive headlines. So why people are still suffering from depression or self hate if we all want the same thing which is self loving generation? Of course I am not talking about vanity, please don't mix this things up. Self love or confidence are in no way vanity on optimal level. Self love is when you are able to put your great features over your imperfections and adore that amazing person you are. After all, your body is just a body and all that matters is personality. Of course looks matter, we all know that and there is no point in denying it but they are just a little part of you, not all of you. We need to keep that in our minds. 

Sometimes I see these beautiful girls crying over a little bit of fat on their belly or the fact that they don't have the size two. Honestly who cares? No matter how hard you try your personality will always be bigger and more important than what your body is like. So teach yourself that your perception of yourself isn't everyone's perception of you. Well all value different features both body and personalitywise, so instead of hating yourself, work on yourself and look for somebody who will fall in love with your perfect imperfections.

Now it is your time to pick, which side of the picture are you? Hateful or loving? Depressed or happy? I hope you like your choices and that they make you happy. If not, it's never too late to make a change.

Fresh start? A change?

yaaaaay 2015, now let's all act like we're going to change and like new year really means a difference when in fact it doesn't. The only thing that changes is a date. You woke us just like you did yesterday, the day before yesterday and the day before the day before yesterday... you know what I mean. Of course I believe that new day, year, month etc. are kind of a way of having a new, fresh start but if you want to make a change in your life just do it. Set goals not resolutions and work hard do accomplish them. It doesn't matter if you set them as the year starts or ends. What matters is if you stick to your choices and live the life you want to live. I hope you all get to experience living that life starting in 2015 until the last day you'll see that beautiful, messed up world we live in. Good luck.

Now let's all act like this pictures relate to this post in any way